Thursday, 10 February 2011

Back from Egypt Part 1

Hey, i am happy my winter holidays ended so i can be in my own room again.
Egypt wasn't what i anticipated at all. It's not all those crazy radical protesters fault that i had a emotional breakdown in Egypt. I bet you it has never happen to anyone u know on a vacation. However ashamed about that, Egypt (well i cant say Egypt because i was only in one small town Hurghada) so, Hurghada, Egypt was enough fun i shouldn't sulk about my trip but i still can complain. This is my blog.

I loved some of the pictures i took as simple as they are. I would bury myself with Ramses if i went without a camera. Thank you Zhen for lending it to me. On a trip like this, digital works best i think.
Nobody really took pictures for me unless I obviously put myself there. Even in pictures, i am never in the center. So, i kept myself busy when the rest of the gang smoked or drink or talked. Many times, i felt invisible, unheard. OK, this is sounding very sad. Let me say some nice things now.

SUN. Ahhh, we really loved the sun. Just to escape Russia's winter for 10 days is worth all my money. we did some tanning in the sun on the beach and i OD on it. Katia only turned 1/2 shade darker. Me? 2 and a half. @# GREAT !!! #$!
Actually, i know what i was getting into but i wanted to have golden skin to look better in  my swimming suit which i modified earlier to resemble a bikini which was not very sexy even for shek. The bikini i intended to wear for Egypt was too small. I had bought it in the kids' section thinking all adult bikinis wont fit my cute tiny tits. lolz!

Back to the topic, i got a shock looking at myself in the mirror after two days. Black baboon staring back.

The russian chicks were sizzling hot as usual in their bikinis and i was the only Chinese in that hotel and not a pretty one for that matter and i didnt feel confident enough to strut around half-naked. I was happy with my bod but 'to hell!' with my complexion. Plus, i noticed the staffs  and younger dudes pay most attention to all the white asses so, i just hang around shek. this is still sounding sad. Dammit. Bailey's fault.
Most importantly, i got a tan too, just like everybody else.

I had plan to blog today and whole day my head came up with sentences, points to mention, pictures to put up, cheeky ideas and now i am stuck. I am always stuck when i want to type something. Why cant i make the continuous typing noise? Plainly not talented. Try harder I know. Every time i start typing, nothing comes up and every time i laying on my bed waiting to fall asleep, a thousand thoughts rise up in my head.

I shall put pictures and elaborate to make my work here easier.



the most memorable drink for me was cacao with milk. Its sweet with a distinct milk taste which i cannot describe. i suspected goat's milk but i doubt also. Anyhow, it tasted awesome especially on a cold night.
We were given coke while snorkeling on the Paradise Island. Those weren't mine, they belong to the tour guide. well, if u cant have it, either snap it or zip it.
then there's the favourite among the boys....Mr. Meister beer. Its 8 % ( the common beer has only 5% ) alcohol so the dudes were on the floor kau tau-ing to the existence of Mr.Meister.
also, we bought some drinks from duty free. katia found a new friend, ania who is russian also obviously and they instantly became best friends and its my fault because i am Chinese and i hate hate hate being around best friends because they are just so irritating because they want to do everything together, they want to buy the same things, they whisper and giggle and shut-up when u appear and this ania is such a dumb-ass baby girl with crappy attitude. i still like katia the same coz she was very nice to me throughout the trip, despite ania being such a pain in the ass for me. my ears burned hearing her speak. I missed lifen then. she's not my best friend, shes a friend for life and i wont have a best friend coz i dont wanna make the third girl suffer. also, u say i have shek but a boyfriend cant be a friend and vice versa.

so, we were at the duty free shop and i bought baileys for 25 usd. i wanted not to buy baileys because i am alwasy buying baileys but katia n ania both went to a corner n discuss and they both bought martinis. see?
I am a nice person, i dont really blame them for being so in phase which each other. I just felt so uncared of and it just makes me wanna cry and i tell u for the last time, u would hate that stupid ania too. when ur 25, u can call an 18-year old stupid. yes u can.
Oh, i ended up getting the Baileys and Katia told me someone told her it will taste great with milk and it really really does.



Michael n Bola (bros) graduated from the university last year. They live in Hurghada. Shek n Manu knows them well enough and thats was the main reason we chose this city instead of the other popular Sharm-el-Sheikh. i've never spoken to anyone of them before this. They were so nice to us all (and so handsome too) to come meet us almost every night to take us out. Since we cancelled all our excursion trips to cairo, luxor and even quad-biking -can u believe me?- because of the growing riots all over Egypt, we have nowhere left to go except to the sea or to the same streets with the same sellers saying hello how are you ten times a day.  
This night, we walked Hurghada from head to toe which took about 45 minutes and we ended up on a free-way by a deserted shore. This was the brothers favourite place to chill. We each had a Mr.Meister and i was in a bad shape emotionally. Since noon i had been feeling bored and lonely and i sat by the ocean to cry my heartache away when katia n ania came over to the beach with their camera to snap walking-by-the-sea-wind-in-my-hair shots. they  didnt even take my pic, nor at least take a pic with me. but, they didnt know i was crying there because i was wearing sunnies. Left me without a word.
So, after the beer, nobody was talking to me and the same rush of emotions just hit me again and i miss my family, i want somebody for me. also, i get really red n puffy when i drink and i hate god for not paying attention during the making of baby shuan's genes selection. I know its silly, its very silly but these things gets to me easily as i get older. I felt the tears coming and i walked very far away and cried n cried. They were all too drunk anyway to notice me. shek came over to comfort me and he really couldn't help but to watch me cry.

Then a camel and a donkey pass by. And you can see my i-took-a-sip look. Maybe its fate, i couldn't go see the pyramids on a camel, a camel came to me instead. Maybe God is a girl and she understand and i felt better after the picture. Funny thing : Bola came over and saw that i had cried and he was tipsy and he said he understands how i feel and continued to say when he first step foot in russia, he was sick and couldn't get use to the cold weather and was bed-ridden for two days and his mom called to say Bola, what happenned to you? You want to come back home?
I was like HUH? but his intention was so damn kind that it made me laugh n feel much better. I hope he doesn't remember anything.
And on the second night on the same spot, we watched a small wedding crowd singing and dancing and their songs sounded eerie to me with the high pitch lalalalalalala~
That night we also had some martinis and katia and i went to hide behind rocks to pee and we had a great laugh. Small things makes me happy.

Wednesday, 26 January 2011

10 nights in Egypt

Dear Sphinx,
                     I pray with all my heart all goes well with the flight, accommodation, money and health over at your land. We are a good source of income to your well-known poor country, so please let us enter, spend and exit, all with a happy heart. May the our journey begin.

Thursday, 20 January 2011

the different faces/phases of Rice

Exam : tomorrow
0800 breakfast : white rice with a fried egg and some soya sauce
1300 lunch : fried rice with dried shrimps ( udang kering/ he bi ) and dried anchovies ( ikan bilis ), added some   thick soya sauce.
1900 dinner : remaining of rice boiled into porridge ( moi ) added some garlic, ginger and 1/2 a chicken cube and of course some soya sauce again..

ALL ingredients mentioned are all that i have in my kitchen. i AM a very lazy bum!

Saturday, 8 January 2011

A or B game

don't know what else to say on a date?
play the game :

coffee or tea?

hot or cold?

winter or summer?

skirt or pants?

shoes or bags?

fancy or practical?

quiet or noisy?

work out or cut down?

friends or partner?

dogs or kids?

smell or looks?

full or slim?

high heels or flats?

pillows or blanket?

beer or joint?

perfume or deodorant?

beach or pool?

roses or chocolate?

tie or belt?

muscles or hair?

street food or restaurant?

boobs or bum?

good sleep or sex?

this shud get u sumwhr somehow i shud think.

                                                                                                                                         love, shuan.

a long series of events

1) bad quarrel about relationship issues
2) plan to Egypt for winter went hay-wire due to multiple reasons
3) saw some gruesome autopsies russian style.
4) landlord asking for May 2011's rent and i had thought i could stop taking money from pa in advance. !!!
 5) xmas present shopping.... everywhr sales. yoohoo. so i bought 2 new sets of outfits for me me me.
6) but wondering why the holiday mood hasn't kick in yet
7) christmas eve dinner ala arabia ( had fun with all them shisha virgins ) :) yay! party was then crashed by shek,   manu n lovely katia.
8) xmas celebration on xmas day in claire's church. ~~ lala~white christmas~~ put on falsies for the first time. hehe. not bad not bad, esp for claire.
9) steamboat with lifen and making tang yuan avatar inspired. election day. i was secretary. typical results and i was kinda disappointed in general. but am glad abang won. new face, new hope.
10) went for first facial treatment after years of consideration. 700 rubs in exchange for a worse complexion. this is not a negative review but it just shows my acne's a big old bitch. gotta think of new methods to counter attack it. i cant believe 6 years in cold cold russia my skin hasn't gotten better. i am cursed for real! god, take my life, give good skin pls !
11) new year eve party in gordon's house. sumbody didnt want sumbody to come, created a heck of a tension. simple people dont get in trouble and vice versa. life is simple for people to complicate it. At 12 sharp, we were under the xmas tree in center on town. one last time. shek cried.
12) complexion got worse. i just cant bear to go out like this.
13)  1st jan celebration with the guys n girls of shek's floor. these people always keep me entertained. muacks u guys! all laughs n jokes n dance n finger-licking good food. 
14) Egypt plan totally crushed to pieces. A friend just got back from thr, said it was so fun. Hmph. i'll shop more now here instead. i have the cash but no explanation to pa why no pictures of egypt?
15) Jenna's bday. i remembered clearly how bad she felt and how bad i too felt when everybody forgot her first bday in russia. poor girl, gotta surprise her this time but plan backfired. both sides went OMG!
16) ah~ now a few days of rest. went to jar pizza with shek then coffee in shokolatnitsa. had a good  laugh from the heart about cutting straws. i love this guy to the max for the many many times he makes me laugh like tht.
17) thought of the computer games i use to play for hours at a stretch when i was still a kid and i downloaded pizza connection 2 again and was back to being a kid. also played real netball, volleyball, badminton and table tennis. thats good after all the food we had.
18) bought aka's n doris bday presents from mango n promod, a skirt and a bag. both cute. then went on to hostel to celebrate aka's bday and to give her a dose of my amateur belly dance.
19) dinner with manu n katia celebrating the russian orthodox christmas on the 7th. brought some of miz n bake cupcakes over for them. yummy as hell.
19) Egypt for winter is back once again! Happier now! waiting for cheaper ticket price.
20) bombed up opponents headquarters in Pizza connection 2. and told myself again n again i gotta start studying for my paper on the 21st. shiat!


there goes the  MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY NEW YEAR n HAPPY BIRTHDAYS.....
some pics now :












Saturday, 18 December 2010

HATE

ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness   -sigmond freud


a desire for the annihilation of an object that is incurable by time  -aristotle






i can hate u but u cant hate me. only i can hate me. so go away, coz i'm busy and u're ugly.